How do we value ourself?? In accordance to what people think, in accordance to what our parents set for us or be it in accordance what you want in the first place.
Many of us forgets where to start first. Human tends to pleased others more in the first place than ownself. I did that before. It give me kind of satisfaction in me. What drives me in doing that? I don't know, perhaps when someone appreciate and feel happy of what we did that gives us sense of belonging and happiness.
But how long would we satisfied doing that and not having it the same way in return? Its like have a one way street, clapping with one hand and so on.
The secret of giving is never expecting a return. When expectation does not achieved it hurts ourself. At the end of the day we are being sulky.
I tried most of things i scare to do last time. Testing my strengths, patience, hatred and anger are not easy. Especially when you dont have anyone to turn to. I mean u can't shoot your friend with certain question. Like you cant ask ur husband about another man attitude, you cant ask your wife why her hands is so rough while the other lady you saw in the goldsmith shop is so smooth when you shop for her anniversary ring, and you cant ask your mom why cant she cook yummilicious like your indian neighbour.
Gathering few people thoughts about certain issue and reasoning why they think differently on the same issue makes me wonder sometimes. Why i can refuse many invitations but accepting one without objection. Why i can continue being friends or i can just ignored if they forgets. I will make few attempts to make them remember me. Once, twice, thrice and finally if theres no answer let them find me instead.
Life is more beautiful if you make it simpler. True at times i only look at it bitterly. Because i dont want to be in that shoe again. If im labelled without being analysed before further get to know session, i would just accept it.
At the end of the day people know how to make their own judgement.
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