Bila Rasa Sudah Tiada

It was a very bz day yesterday. I was having good chat with some friends over chat and sms but not on the phone. The inner layer was soft but the outer was hard. Real cancerian with the mood swings.

Now i dont care much if he dont call or sms. Not needing to know whether i am needed or not. My last sms last night was "kekecilan hatiku adalah sangat kecil jika dibandingkan dengan kesedihan seorang isteri yang perlukan perhatian"

Siapalah aku, hanya orang ketiga yang tidak seharusnya berada disitu. Aku terlalu penat melayan karenah ingin yang mahu dilayani dan diladeni. Aku telah penat untuk memahami. Sekarang aku tak perlu sesiapa untuk memahami ku maupun aku untuk menyenangkan hati sesiapa.

I save so much in guarding my feelings and self. There is many around who trying to get their space their chances. Only thing i am keeping the space and queue accordingly. Now its open to everyone. As i always said "best man wins"

I remember someone saying "let ur openess of ur heart find it's destiny". And i know i have never been looking and i just make it open. The door to my heart is by making me see the action speaks than the words.

Progress are only number or time consumed to get the journey gets its destiny. I love a quote from Mike this morning "i think u r a friend with comandable character. I like u"

I was smiling all the way to my lunch. Having it not said also i know that my bitterness pull them away from me. I dont blame them and please dont blame me. Nothting that you do to glued me to you. No inspiration to have you tight beside me. Yes im craving for love n attention but im not a cheap bitch who will beg for love.

My place, my zone and my den are so cozy that i dont need anyone anymore till further notice. The adorable faces i always wanted to be with was my kids who always awaits for my home coming daily... God dont shove the love away from me just yet... let me have June to decide then may be you can give me