Hunters

Male are hunters!!!!

The indecent proposal never stop. What do they look at a mother of 4. I remember when Din cant get back to me he come up with this "Who wants you? You are old!!! You are a women with 4 kids!!! Do you think man will like you"

I smile and walk away... Alhamdullillah... A challenge that i took that day are really sweet. It reminds me of him when the indecent proposer did not give up.

They know i never entertain those proposal, they know i will not turn up but they dont give up. What if i turn up, what if i accept it?

That will continue to be an "if" in my vocabs for now ...

Since I freed myself from a capsule of being little nice sweet me, since i dare my image in the mirror to be me, since i know what i am really looking at, that was the day i set myself free to be who I am. To have all the bad and weaknesses beaten and sliced. Although once a while i still have the old me but at least the fear is not as huge as before. What i am still lacking was confidence sometimes.

In terms of winning a man, i dont think i have to. I will only create problems as i know i wont be able to free myself so i may as well dont start.

Finally he gave up and send me a message to give my priority to my kids. Yes, and of course their my number one behind me. First of all when i address why he really wanted to see me yesterday was because he was lonely.

You have a wife, you have childrens who will make you lonely no more. Craze for attention i guess is more of the answer. If you dont ask for it, will you get it. Why do they find source instead of addressing matters. He almost married second time but when things dont work out his way he split.

Say for example i come to his way, enjoying every attention, care n pampering he gave, would my life be better? Would his be merrier?? More wives, more childrens... Hey wake up!!! More problems!!!

Because you come to me for an escapism. Running away from your loneliness, your attention crave and so on. I cant tolerate that. I want pure and simple love where you know what you want, accepting and appreciating what you do, what you want and so on...

Am i being emotional or being rationale here???? No one have the answer except me. One can judge me, read me, observe me but one dont know what am i really looking forward to. Because what i say and what i do may varies at certain time n occasion.

Be wise...