Jumbo Sale

My fren is migrating so she needs to sell of her items:

Kia Caren 2002 Selling price RM47,000 (neg)

House for Rent Desa Pandan (3rooms 2 bathrooms) part furnish with aircon & cabinet RM1,300

Household items etc

Please call: Rome Malik (0192260252)
email: romemalik@yahoo.com
or email me at: farmgirl2k2@gmail.com

D' Datins Club Gatherings

I was invited for her daughter birthday party. There is many people including Chinese and Indian, not forgetting singles and married. As a friend i came bringing all four plus my mom to accompany me because she wanted to meet her during raya and she wasnt in town.

So the party went well. It finished about 10pm more or less. The people was very friendly, that one thing i love being in that gathering. They serve nice food too. My kids enjoy that very much that night and collapsed soon after we reached home.

I went to Yatee's place the next day, and so she is. They were talking about the party. Who turn up and whos not. I was lost and keep quiet and only talk when they asked me about it.

suddenly she asked me about Linda been calling me??? I was lost n told them frankly theres only two ocassions of smses and that was it. No further after that.

D Datins' club talking was not really in my cup of tea because:

1. Im not in their shoe in any case i cant put myself into it n feel what they feel.
2. They lifestyle are different (the energy, aura, feel, needs are totally different from me especially)

I dont want to be in the topic because i think i cant be like one of them and i just want to be like what i am, who i am, where i am... hearing too much complicates me further. I had enough complications. I dont want more.

Pengertian

The call received on Wednesday afternoon was a shocked but since he was the one to tell me the news when he is better.

But that night a call from my sister again put me in panick mode and in 15 minutes i was ready packed and set to go. He called again when i was on the way to airport with mom to visit him. He tame me not to come for i needed the money for Raya for my children preparation and etc.

I really dont know what to do and at the same time there was no flight that night anymore. The next day i checked out the schedule and there wasnt any flight for that day and Friday. I feel more gloomy n checked his situation now and then.

When he was ok he is ok, he talk, he laugh and he jokes but in the afternoon when i called was on the way to the office he was back to his position cant talk and was weak and he was ready to be transfered to hospital again.

I then make the reservation morning flight took me to the destination with connecting flight to KK and then Sandakan. I cant express the feelings i have that day even till now.

Everything clampsed all inside me between the many reasons brought me there despite what he said to me. Only when i observe the situation, condition and look what has brought him to that will only make me feel better.

Two nights there having the feel to understand the situation and condition gives me better picture why it attacks his sugar level down that doesnt give him energy to do anything and not talking too.

Managing the situation in a very tight conditions makes me feels thankful to HIM for still giving me the opportunity to see him, hold his hand and ask for his forgiveness.

With that too allow me to know my other sister and families in Sabah and know them close to heart. Now i know why i do look like Chinese, why i look like Indon, why people say i am not having the typical malay looks.

With the warm gesture and hospitality from that never put my mind away far from my children who awaits for me to come home as soon as possible.

With direct flight from Sandakan to KL brought me home with 1001 feelings last night. Having to understang why god creates human with emotions and feelings and brains.

To all Muslim readers "Selamat menyambut Hari Raya"

The beauty of words in the unfold life experience

Glad that people notice the eagerness, greediness and selfishness in them. I am always agree to that. As human we can run away from that feelings. The needs in us sometimes put away our sensibility and the building of the needs and wanting kills the good sense of ownself.
I noted everytime i say things about this people would say i hear from one side not both. Wise person will not take a side feedback but all. Not one, not two but surroundings too. I smile i like that thought. I love to observe people, i like to ask question, i like to know their favourite colours, their eating habits, their way of thinking, their hobbies, their handwriting, their way of eating.

All of those will give you what a person are actually. Having to work with socio science area, doing survey on attitude and behaviours, reading and be with them successful and medium rank and also from lower rank of people do me wonders. Of how to appreciate the life that I am having now.

Being happy to work, to eat well, to love all those around me and also being able to nurture as a mother, friends, employee and etc. I thank god for all i have today.
With that observation, surveys, questions and answer, I have had good spread of well balance example on why are things created on their own ways. Not many will interprate it right. It takes time for one to understand the importantance to understand one situation or incidence happened.

I dont have to explain all here, as all the important values are kept only for my own observation, use and future reference. All i can do is just give more of my time and effort to say this to me "if those things are meant for you, it will be for you" . And i always believe in having faith that god is fair n knows best why he give you what you are having now.
You may have lots of money but are lack of attention and love, you may have lots of love but you may not have millions of dollars. If the opportunity is there but u dont work hard u will not get anything out of it at all. So reader dont just assume you have known it all, dont just assume you have read all because the hidden write ups in your life is never unfold if you are not addressing it yourself.

Semuga ramadhan memberi hidayah dan keberkatan.

Aku atau Dia....

The facts that we are the same.Yang mungkin membezakan itu cuma karektor, attitude and behaviour.

My classmate call me out of nowhere with a tales story of a man. About him marrying 22 years old girl. About meeting her in 5 months and be able to buy her a house, giving her business, expensive watches, handbags, outfits etc. With my calm tone i told her to be patience and seek for HIS blessings and mercy for guidance and help. He cant leave his fellow asking without an answer and help her in her difficulties.

I have known her for over 20 years. She was my classmate, my collegemate, and my clubbing mate during our teen age. We live nearby, we date together, we share our stories, we share our plate and lots of other things too. I know him, I know her 1st boyfriend, i know her previous boyfriend and i know who she married too. Since she got married she become introvert. I hear from her once a while, i call her for rumah terbuka and some other occassion. I met her only once a while since then.

A month ago she traced me back and leave me an email that makes me curious about her life now. Since then she turned to me whenever she needs a friend to talk to. We become like the old teenage friend but this time being an advisor and lending an ear whenever she needs me.It happens around me all the time. If it is not my friend it is your friend or her friend friend's. Its too common. In her case I cant detect the lack of attention, love and passion like its always told by those men. He gets all he needs from a wife, a woman, a mother and also from a lover.

Man are just greedy at times, selfish when they can only see one side of the world. And I am the listener the observer taking all the inputs and download it in my box of heart computing and compiling it for the next chapter of life. I can just wish and make sure she will be better and be more patience of the obstacles. This is only one part. While other people face the worse like the case of Jurin.

Three of my daughters celebrate her birthdays few days ago and i am suppose to plan for break fasting outside one of this days. Sunday we are going to visit Rumah anak Yatim in Klang to share their experience with them.

Ramadhan

Semakin umur meningkat semakin berlainan perasaan bila ramadhan. Dengan anak-anak yang sentiasa tidak kisah dengan juadah asalkan sentiasa bersama menjadikan walau secawan minuman dan sebutir kurma terasa manisnya hingga jauh ke lubuk hati.

I want a change this year but yet to let it happen. I am blurred now and very unstable emotionally. Other than that its is sweet. Pressured was pinned on me n i know it was huge and a lot more on him. I am being ignored because he cant do 2 things at the same time. But being sensible at this time will kill the security feeling of someone. So let them fell shaken a little. I just hope HE keep my patience still and i dont have to walk away like i have been before.

To all my spacers who knows me alhamdullillah and thanks for the wishes and smses, Selamat menunaikan ibadah dan semuga Ramadhan membawa hidayah dan ukhuwah.

Selamat BerPuasa

Selamat Berpuasa to all my readers, blog hoppers and everyone who drops by.

Happy Ramadhan Al Mubarak

Sesuatu Yang Membuka Mata Hati

Tiba- tiba dia call.

"oi aku nak minta maaf ni" I was blurr tetiba
"Arini malam nisfu syaaban, malam segala buku dosa diangkat allah kesana, marilah kita bermaafan." Hati ku dihiris dan dihimpit oleh kesedihan

Teman akan sentiasa ingat dan mengingatkan kita bila mana perlu.

Dan seorang lagi datang "lynna jangan lupa tadi mak aku call dia kata jangan lupa qiamulai malam ni" dan dia memandang tepat kemata aku "buat solat hajat minta apa yang you nak"

I wanted to cry but my heart are not allowing it. My eyes is watery but nothing comes out. I have series of arguments, i have been consoling, i have been tempting to burst but i become cool and compose all the mixture feelings in me to be compressed.

HE knows the best. Alhamdullillah he opened my eyes and soul tonite.

Pentas Hidup

After 3 years marriage will change slightly
After 5 years gap became bigger
After 7 years bridge may be a good outcome to connect each other
After 10 years something will come up

Of all the stages it includes silentness, arguments, heart feeling, pinpointing and the worst is infedility. Man turn to another woman and woman turn to another woman (mostly) but some will turn to another man

Women change mostly after the first baby appears. Thinking that little creature need their attention and neglecting the father are the biggest mistake. Women thought man can take care of their self. Knowing of the character of a man who is hard on the surface but actually more like a baby inside them.

Looking and searching always after a security, love, pamper, care, affections etc, that are the real man. Those who really knows how to play their role won't be feeling it badly because they have ways to mend the problem well. Knowing their woman are the best things they could do. And understanding why the changes took place are their credibility.

Note that im talking about a man who understand their woman enough. All men has ego, so do women.

But because nature of a women which is soft, lovable, emotional and feminine it makes them know where they are from and what are they heading. Mostly they are loyal although they are obsessed with the kids, family and some who has career. They put off their social life entirely just because they want full concentration of their family.

But still man are not enough of their woman who give 200% of their life to families. They need something to tickle they thoughts, their mind and feelings.

Some are just tickling without any emotional attention seeking. As they reach home the other half and family are their life. But at work calling and smsing are part of their routine life.

Some girls may be fine with the situation but for those single who are seeking for someone caring, understanding this are the right candidate and how that reflect those men?? (Sendiri cari pasal sendiri tanggung).

Back to the gaps that emerge after few years marriage, there is no reason for gaps actually. It’s the understanding needed between both. For the attention needed by the little ones as well as the big baby. Both has played good role in making the happy family.

Role of a father who has been out the whole day to bring bread home for families and role of a mother who may be working day time and rushed home to fulfilled the role as mother, wife and a lady to a man taking care of the whole welfare in making the marriage meaningful to her and him plus the kids should be taken seriously in making sure that both understand each duties.

But does this responsibilities make them needing each other more and better in terms of having each other to complete the beautiful life???

I know sometime things happen without we want it to be. Things just go out of ways unintentionally. Some would just do it because they want to fulfilled the eagerness of being needed some would just follow the flow without realizing they have gone so far.

Backtrack, think wisely will benefit both.

This reflectionary item will of course affects my decision.

Insecure and Inferior

In every individual the feelings are there. FIXED! Some trying hard to deny it although they're living happily in lavishing life.

But unfortunately the feels never dies as all of us human are created in a way to have the mixture sort.

One can do anything to reverse that feeling in them and make others have that miserable feeling but of course one who knows what they are wont feel the slight of it at all.

Lain Padang Lain Belalang

Nak Gelak Sikit

jo an: emmmm kalau pinggang girl 35...u agak di chubby tak
Please urself: thats not my problem n not for me to answer i dont go n check ppl bmi???

Thats my answer. I can be cynical and i can be cunning but the truth is women will never ask the man if he wear pants size 40 would he look nice in it or not?? Theres is some women who will give a shit about bmi and how the man look but some will care less.

As for me Ive been with small, big, tall, thin, chubby, macho, handsome not to forget masculine guys to be friend with. What more important to me was who is he than how he looks.

Looks can be deceiving. Nice to see, but not nice to talk with. Nice to be with but speaks nonsense I turn around and leave.

Anyway thats how men look at women, judging from the way she looks, her BMI do entice them.

Anyway lain padang lain belalang!!!

Measuring

When i don't agree to meet, was that a measure of arrogantness?

When im being expressive is that the best way to measure who am i or what am i?

When im being judge should i care what people think about me?

If my principle is being question would that make me less than a person?

If im in bad mood should i not laugh or smile at all to other people?

Im fine today it was just my mood swing on certain situation that doesnt make me happy today. Other than that, im fine. I was judged and critisize today the silly statement i made n that was accountable of who i am in their eyes. "Sigh"

Life and people are two different thing.

Expressive or Silent

However this topic occur my mind today.

Being expressive hardly attracts acceptance from people. But silent is a killing tools for communication.

Good & Bad abt Men & Woman

Men:

1. All men are extremely busy.
2. Although they are so busy, they still have time for women.
3. Although they have time for women, they don't really care for them.
4. Although they don't really care for them, they always have one around.
5. Although they always have one around them, they always try their luck with others.
6. Although they try their luck with others, they get really pissed off if the woman leaves them.
7. Although the woman leaves them they still don't learn from their mistakes and still try their luck with others!


Women:

1. The most important thing for a woman is financial security.
2. Although this is so important, they still go out and buy expensive clothes and stuff.
3. Although they always buy expensive clothes, they will still say that they never have something to wear!
4. Although they never have something to wear, they always dress beautifully.
5. Although they always dress beautifully, you hardly care .
6. Although you hardly care, they still expect you to compliment them.
7. Although they expect you to compliment them, when you do, they don't believe you!

Best and Memorable Holiday

Current mood: cheerful

I cant describe the feelings, the emotions when I step out from my house last Friday. On that very moment everything start with a good point and the laugh starts. Not because whom, but it was because im going to meet the people who had make my 39th birthday so wonderful and meaningful.

The minute we reach Puduraya I was told the bus had left on time!!! What the %^$&&&. It used to delayed on the last trip i had. But that doesnt make my mood turn sour nor turn off. Im still alive and get straight to the next bus and jump in. 4 hours later i reached Larkin and had jumped into a coach which is heading back to KL. I was lucky to have a good navigator n my mind raced back when they said it takes another 4 hours to reach the destination???

Shit!!!! Jumped down the bus n took transit and we are on the way to Woodlands. Phewww. 5 bus, if im not mistaken we had change buses 5 times that day. But it still give me good and lively mood plus laugh all the way to my hotel.

I have a great change of vision into this new area which is in the east of the lion city. Its full of Malays, the familiar faces i can say. Exhausted and taken a bath to refresh and gotten the whole new soul after. So what ever I've read on used for my research before i left was now being analysed fully.

And here i came to know, they are not many differences from our place here in KL. The taxi refuse to take us to some places, ignore us during peak period and shift changing time. They also break the rules, dont use pedestrian bridge to cross the road, still hanging clothes over the balcony. What different does that makes lol. We are human afterall, i mumble while smiling.

And the people who were in Orchard Road and all over the place makes me feels like vomiting. Only that, this time i manage to control my adrenaline system and not to make a scene and stroll along.

I had a chance to take picture and watch from far the full rehearsal of Singapore Merdeka day. Walking almost all the time and sit down when tired, watch people, assuming, mumbling, correlating and so on. All and all it was good. I had so much fun each day with different group. I had so much of memorable experience from Mediterenean food, habits and i got a chance to try Shisha once in my life time. And that was hell out of good experience to be in a place full of Ang Mo (Kwai Low) according to them. I love to observe them on how they inhale it, let the smoke lingers around shile sipping the wine, coke, brandy and so forth. Nothing so extreme to compare those here in Malaysia especially when seing our own people in that kind of place or when they are high. They are still tolerable, talking, laughing in manners. Nothing goes out of control. From lepakking in the street to private places and then back to room and continue the stories and by the time they are gone im already in cloud nine.

Thanks to Yati and Eza who brought me to nice place to eat to and share my walking ghost city story. It was never been so fun with Eza cracking fun story which remind me of R son. And I cant wait for them to pay me a visit next when they are around. And for Amoi who loves eating very much, I cant help myself repeating the WC all the time due to the hot stuff I ate on the last day we were there. Too hot to bear, lol.

I thank all of them to share and bring me all the joy and laughs as well as share my precious 39th birthday.

As i open the door of my house I was greet with love and hugs from my children and the birthday present makes me happier than I was. I was filled with love, affection and tenderness by all. I got a hug from mum for a very first time with a wish. That brings slight of tears but surprisingly does not rip me burst to tears like usual. I can feel her love now grows better that it was. All the sweet anticipation after a long patience has already makes me fulfilled with all that i want in life.

Thank god for all that he gave....

Thank you for all of you who had made this trip so enjoyable and fun altho the night safari, the bird park, the island was not visited like it's plan but making sure the next visit will emerged soon after this. It will again

Truth Unfolds

It was a very memorable birthday trip and present i had this year. Beside a chain from my elder daughter 1 bangle from shira and another one from twin. I got Esprit watch from him and a pair of shoe.

Thank you i have more in my mind than in words here.

Warna Warni - The Next Episode

Category: Blogging

Phew...

It has been long since the last blog written. The drive and the passion are still there but i hardly find time to breathe in to slot in a time to write and let thing pour out here.

Finally after a long journey and the haul on the bumpy and jumpy road im now able to breathe in and out peacefully. Smiling letting the things go and flow naturally.

"Best man wins" my final word. The journey that I took have taken me to where I am now. Try harder and this time make sure you dont fail and hopefully i dont stumble but heheheheh the barrier is tougher and harder i guess. Why because i have found the passion in myself and surroundings. That all those around had make me better, tougher, calmer and peaceful.

On contrary side of yesterday. It sucks but i learn a lot of sweet things today. Hence, thanks to the tough people around who understand and able to hold my hand, who share the smile, who share the tears. I owe them, whoever they are.

Him, who has to struggle still to prove, take your time laaa. As i am going to enjoy my life on the 5th year track of being obnoxious, bubbly, happy the way i am with lots of sensibility. Of all the things happening I appreciate the friendship more than any relationship.

And the kids are better than yesterday. Understanding more of the needs of me being in the office to bring the bread home. But weekend are all theirs along with their commands and needs to be at home, parks, cinema, flying kites, picnics with home cooked meal. The time spent are precious than what i have been with individuals or company.

As of today there has been a few who tried to irritate me more and more but in the end had to back off. Are you pissed??? So do I, but I dont give up. Why because anticipation is sweet.

Yes, now i can confirmed that looks can be deceiving. A picture has invited many people and make many frusturated due to rejection. It was just a feel to expose who I am but again I think it was enough just to be behind a shadow of a farmgirl.

Using that nick for more or less seven years has bring a character, attitude, charm, warmth and personality of who am I. Often taken wild, raunchy but in all to me im like a crunchy, juicy apple who can be sour and sweet when you have tasted it. Or the red strawberry in ice cube. Inviting and melting. Maybe im too much imagining of those nice things naturally. But thats what i want, want i need, hope to be in all again able to provide sensibility and offer a hand of friendship just to anyone who understand.





A written invitation to be internet photomodel shocked me. I cant find the reason why to it but no thanks. Pictures of me can only be taken only me. How i took this picture? Thanks to my L6 Motorola and Nokia to fine tune with my moods and emotions. Crabs yeah always have 1001 mood swings but i know those who tackle me wisely always win the card of bringing my smile and good angle. Passionate and loving thats what they should have.


Tebrau, Im coming to visit you soon on my last birthday of being a mature adults, female, lady and mother.

Woman, Mother, Lady, Lover

From a friend email

A woman is often measured by the things she can't control. She is measured by the way her body curves or doesn't curve, by where she is flat, or round or straight. She is measured by 36 - 24- 36 & inches & ages & nos, by all the outside things that don't ever add up to who she is in the inside.

And so if a woman is to be measured, let her be measured by the things she can control, by who she is and who she is trying to become. Because every woman knows, measurements are only statistics. And statistics LIE!

Achievement

Achievement Lama tak bercakap tentang diri....terasa rindu pula untuk menulis...

On my children side that something I love to pen down.

Shira has been released from her sport camp 2 weeks ago. Achieving one gold medal for 4x100 and bronze for 4x200 representing for WP in MSSM held from 9 -12th May. In conjunction with her birthday that was the biggest prize for her beside being 3 years in a row holding best athletes title in S.R.J.KC. Lai Meng.

And the biggest even will be end of this month for her third time Khatam Quran. There will be a small ceromony held to celebrate the event. She and her older sister will be having the same occassion on 2nd June and hopefully the twins will follow by end of this year. God willing.

My father in law passed away last Saturday at 5.45pm pm leaving 7 childrens, 26 grand childrens and 6 great grand childrens. His extensive big families really brings the joy in his life and throughout his journey on board. He was left alone by dear wife 10 years ago keeping himself surviving and having the fond memories of her in his chest and mind.
The last I saw him was about a month ago before I left to Bandung. I was lucky to have met him and still remember who am I when I last visited him. Semuga rohnya dirahmati dan ditempatkan disisi mereka yang beriman dan taqwa. Amin.

On the otherside this morning upon entering his car, his eyes lingered from top to toe, touching my skirt, gazing and looking again and again. Complimenting the attire I'm wearing today. That was not just that. The strange acting was from yesterday when I asked him many time what is it in his mind. Running away from questions was his specialities and jumping to next topics one to another. Out of sudden while driving he hugged me and that was really a surprise. And there after he sealed his mouth not talking anymore till I tickled him with killer questions. Today I think that I can summed up some of the stories into line after his court case. That will jeorpadise his time, his planning and next vision. The only thing he says before putting down the phone just now "please pray for me". God hears you and everyone.

So have faith....

Eternity

Priority is always yourself. Dont put anyone first except HIM the one who thinks of you all the time. Waiting for you to praise HIM, seek solace in HIM, find peace in HIM.















Never explain, who ever can understand you will take you as it is














"Dont deny your own needs and wants.
The only one who able to love and understand what you want is ONLY YOU"



















"You choose to decide the best for you, be it yesterday, now or tomorrow.
Best choice leading the wiser you"


















"We often make wrong judgement over people we love.
Let them love you more than you love them"












"Emotions leads to failure"



















"Time wait for no one, enjoy life as it is, be thankful because what ever you've tasted makes you eager to have more"