Penghibur Hati

One of those day songs that still lingers in my memories.

Layu sebelum Berkembang

It happen for a reason in this season in a lifetime.

When you love it is better to let it go and let it comeback if it is meant for you.

Hijrah

Aku dipinta untuk berhijrah segalanya hari ini.
Bukan hanya hijrah tempat malah berhijrah tentang hati juga.

Noktah itukah jawapan?

Jujur

Sukar untuk dimengertikan definisi KEJUJURAN.

Jujur terhadap diri, jujur terhadap kehidupan, teman dan juga sekeliling. Tak mungkin aku dapat jujur pada diriku sendiri hanya kerana aku ingin menjaga hati mereka yang berada di sekelilingku.

Banyak yang tersungkam jauh dilubuk hati, walau meronta untuk dilepaskan. Sayang aku tak mungkin dapat melepaskannya walau hatiku amat ingin memberitahu apa sebenarnya yang ingin ku inginkan. Walaupun kuberitahu mungkinkah ia menjadi milikku?

Ramadhan semakin jauh berlalu, sayu meninggalkan aku.

Sepi itu tetap akan kumilikki.

AMIN

Hanya Kau Yang Mampu

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It has been long since i hibernate. I dont write, i hardly goes out meeting all my friends as well as calling. Life is so calm and peaceful now. Not really actually but im taking it slowly one at a time.

If im really tensed out, i take time off with my kids out of town, outskirts or just hiding in some place that no one know except me n the kids. Not even him sometime. I dont want to include others as much as i wanted to.

So nowadays i become the private me as i always wanted to be. Keeping my smile intact, standing tall, my spirit are lift high on top. Im not sure for any reason those things happen but since i learn to forgive i think things are much easier. Much much much easier.

There is lots stage of changes that are made. Along that i learn lots of thing and issued are solved accordingly.

Knowing there is still people who thinks of me, love me from afar really amusing but too far. I cant afford to have long distance relationship anymore. Althogh he is single, capable, loving, presentable but the distance wont tame me the way i am. I learnt from my past mistake, i will never be able to hold my feelings.

In need of caring and loving nurture, i have to have someone who really devote into me. The unlikely me who I was before.

But that is what i want all this year. Cringing for my mothers love, cringing for someone that i can depend of.

He yelled at me yesterday because he cant stand my behaviour, my action, my tantrum, and i become calm, i become softer and i relent in his arm. The moment i was envelope in his love i dissolve into pieces and there i was deserted in nowhere looking for my shinning star

Aku Wanita