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It has been long since i hibernate. I dont write, i hardly goes out meeting all my friends as well as calling. Life is so calm and peaceful now. Not really actually but im taking it slowly one at a time.

If im really tensed out, i take time off with my kids out of town, outskirts or just hiding in some place that no one know except me n the kids. Not even him sometime. I dont want to include others as much as i wanted to.

So nowadays i become the private me as i always wanted to be. Keeping my smile intact, standing tall, my spirit are lift high on top. Im not sure for any reason those things happen but since i learn to forgive i think things are much easier. Much much much easier.

There is lots stage of changes that are made. Along that i learn lots of thing and issued are solved accordingly.

Knowing there is still people who thinks of me, love me from afar really amusing but too far. I cant afford to have long distance relationship anymore. Althogh he is single, capable, loving, presentable but the distance wont tame me the way i am. I learnt from my past mistake, i will never be able to hold my feelings.

In need of caring and loving nurture, i have to have someone who really devote into me. The unlikely me who I was before.

But that is what i want all this year. Cringing for my mothers love, cringing for someone that i can depend of.

He yelled at me yesterday because he cant stand my behaviour, my action, my tantrum, and i become calm, i become softer and i relent in his arm. The moment i was envelope in his love i dissolve into pieces and there i was deserted in nowhere looking for my shinning star