Friendship

Why i choose this subject?

It has very deep meaning to me. How do i classify my friend, in what degree, category? Every one has their on set and segments. Very much of them are only on the top level. There is very few selected ones who earn my trust.

And those are very rare and hard to find. Why did i say that? I dont easily choose a fren amongst those ppl i meet, i saw, or pick from anywhere. I am a very choosy and selective person in terms of matching a person to jive with my personality.

Observation are first thing i do when i go out and meet people. I dont talk to just anyone if i dont want to and dont be nice if im not nice to you because i wont at all entertain you.

Some will commented I am hard person from the first look they see, some will easily label me a happy go lucky, some would just label me hard to please. I can be anything you want so long i wanted to play along with you. I suit and cater mine according to you.

How do i gain the trust and how do i trust my friends is very hard to explain. Im not a particularly easily commenting on people but i take critics and your recommendations base on subject, factual and situation. But how do i gain that trust really take long time to own it.

The pain which was carried along was hard to forget even its long forgiven. It leave me a very bad impact as i never ever easily trusting a person again until last nite when i post a question "can you be my friend".

This question has a very deep meaning. Nobody in my life had ever had this question if i have given them the priviledge. Why do I asked those question? While to be a friend some thinks we don’t need to ask but we just need to feel the click the chemistry. Out of many you find out there, I may be one who asked you this question. Why?

I have so many things to share but I scared that not many people would understand why I do it, I execute it, I keep it, I use it, whatever it is. I have so many issues kept in my box of trust having not revealed to anyone. And I am tired to keep it longer. I want a fren who understand this and share his or her idea.

I have one female version which I shared some and I want to have one male version where I can just pick up my fon and bombard with some questions and when I put the receiver I will be able to smile and tell myself ‘done! Your box is empty now’.

Again trust is the issue. No I don’t fully trust anyone. Although my best friend has some degree achieved but not fully. I reserved that 40% for me. I know they should not also trust me fully but its all up to them. I would not pushed them to do as i say. You are a free bird. Feel free to be who you are, what you are.


What makes I think you would? Good question to you and to me. Instinct I guess or merely on my super first observation. Perhaps and hopefully im not wrong this time.

3 infact that I used to call always somehow have gone. One with bz life, two because he asked me to stop that friendship. Why? Only and n him would know and understand why. And three I don’t have that standard to reveal to him. I want fresh anew.

Let me take the risk since I am not always confidence with myself and others let him take this chance to help me, to make me understand more n fully about each and individuals are unique, beautiful and individual.