Grateful Or Fair???

Penna: Farmie
Released: 030205 (6.33pm)
Mood: Grateful

A friend strike me with a question last night over dinner at nasi lemak Ampang. What is the point of marrying if you can do things happily without being bond into the law of marriage…
Clueless with his statement in the beginning. As soon as I reach home after meeting him, I have to cook for my kids as tomorrow im already working. Those thought ponders me. He give me a point there. One can have everything when they are not married. Companion, lover, friends, sex partner, share the jokes, sadness, happy moments as well as heartache but without even sacrificing one soul out.
Although one has gf or bf but they can still have another person around without feeling guilty of having an affair with another.
Which I think its fair, very fair. But again to me as individual my thoughts, my personal thoughts, it is how you look up to marriage bondage, a relationship to your love ones, the honesty, the passion, the sincerity of sharing with her/ him.
When one are already into marriage why should one be tempted to another, why cant one hold the urge, hold the temptation, avoid looking although undeniable that he/ she could just come without one wanted to have it.
God has many ways to test us. Its only "iman" who could hold us from straying, or being unfaithful.
It is all about what you want. If you did that (straying, having affair/ relationship), and expect your love one not to do it, I think that’s wrong perception.
Looking back at what I have before, what I did before, when I don’t want my beloved husband to look at other woman, I prepare the best of me at the first degree. To be at his best whenever he needs me. To some people I may be stupid but to me that’s the greatest thing I could do to be part of him. No matter what people look at him, I would give the best because at the end of the day my satisfaction matters not them. But to the extent that he love his addiction better than I am or a woman, there and then I made my own decision to be who I am now.
Yes, woman would never be less than a woman without a man while they have the children to pour more love or if it is not the children, there is nature, pets and lots of other things. Im glad Ive opened up my eyes, not only outer it is also my inner eyes to accept everything happen to me as the impact of what I have done, what I’ve accepted to be, and "redha dengan ketentuan allah diatas taqdir yang diaturkannya". Im thankful.
Today my best fren scolded me for not wanting to accept her empathy for my children. My second boss offered me with some money which I disregard here accordingly on that matter. Im still striving for life, I still can stand tall, I still can urge myself to work, how can I just accept those without working hard for it.
Dear girlfriend thank you, I do adore you, I have never asked but you observed, you notice and you sensed it. But yeah I know, as you said I don’t want to take it due to my pride. Was it true? Only me hold the reason for what I do, for what I feel, for why not taking the offer that given. You were nice all this while, but im sure god has the best for me. Ill just have to be more patient. Thank you…