Wishing

Nosy?

I am???

Frankly i have no time and room for that anymore. Im full of life and structured.

I was already in basement talking to my daughter when next call come asking me to come with him for dinner.

When i wanted to to get away of something someone carried me away lifting it from my shoulder... I feel relief and thankful for him who waited by the lobby with his smile. After quite sometimes of not seing each other, i was feeling ackward besides him, avoiding his eyes, talking to my own feelings.

Yes, i was feeling uneasy, having mood instability as i was tired for the whole of past week. I was driving to and fro PutraJaya every morning to send my niece to work. The only best thing i could to describe is the greens along the journey which lifted my bounciful mood swing towards everyone.

He was so happy yesterday having a meal opposite each other. He was telling me all the reason why he has to say something that can make me move on. Anyway to whatever reason said it does not change me just as yet.

I am fine now with or without you. With or without him. But i am not fine if i am not having HIM all the time, thinking of HIM all the time. And for sure he has never leave me even so many 'HE' is around me.
I was ligthen up by many him yesterday just coincidently to boost me up. But none really affects me the way i wanted to be. But HIM really gives me the full of love that i want by sending the so many 'him' who was trying hard to get a place.
You are welcome 'he' but i dont have a space anywhere if you want something special. You can just be here as you wish n go when you wish too. Im not going to stop nor letting you go. You stay wherever you like.

I will enjoy your attention, your affection, your love. To return it back?? i have no way to do so as for now. Not You, not Him, not He...

I just want to be me... Appreciating the time i have, loving the people i want, giving attention or time i wish to be with ... Wthout being told or without having to return what i am told to...

Wishing that the perfectness i inhale with HIM every moment would last to the last day of my existent. Amin...