Pleasant

Penna: Lynna
Released: 090506
Mood: Creepy

Firm surprised me with a pleasant evening last nite when i just about to leave, i saw him coming and dinner took place in Melia. It was a lovely dinner as usual, he his pampering me with the luxury and exclusivity. Well then, thank you would do enough from me as i dont open up much on everything.
As we decided to end the night, before sending me home i was caught up by surprised again when the warm embrace envelope my body. I was shock by the gesture for he never had a chance to show it to me although deep in him i know it was long waited opportunity. I know he was feeling uneasy when i did not return the gesture as he expected. Perhaps i wasnt belong to that moment, him or that passion was really never in my heart.
I know even how passionate he could be towards me even from the beginning i known him few years ago, i still cant return the same passion and compassion he had for me. NEVER. I like the attention, the way he affects me, his lovely words, his way of getting me to the right place i wanted, and tried to get me a piece that i love to have and even the small tiny thing i wear caugh his attention and inner eyes.
I have never taken any from him despite his numerous offer. Why?? I dont want to be having something from someone that i cant and for sure not going to return a thing. I came as a fren and i will only remain fren. No matter how much you affect me with your passion and gesture. Maybe perhaps not just yet. Perhaps my boderline still high, my limits still intact.
While a days ago, when i was driven in a Merz by a fren for a company of having good time in one of the club in town. While i and rome having a good laugh over two successful businessman as a company, my mind are still pacing with Rome suggestions all this while being my friend. "Why did't i use sometime as an opportunity to change my life path?"
An opportunist will do such, an invader will forgo no matter what stakes they have to go through. But for me my intention was pure, be there as a friend, take you as a friend, have fun being friends and enjoy with a friend. So till now i have never taken any sordid movement in my life.
My ex came and ask me for lunch today. Happily I gave him the time to sit down and catch things up again with him. To ask about his father, his family, life and next thing will happen to him. It was nice, warm and pleasant. When he mentioned to take up his EPF to pay more on the house mortgage, i was taken aback. I never did expected for him to do that, but i would just have to look and see on his movement. But it was never a way to get back what i have left behind. A friend is indeed what i take him now.
No More No Less!!!

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