Monday, August 27, 2007

Sesuatu Yang Membuka Mata Hati


Tiba- tiba dia call.

"oi aku nak minta maaf ni" I was blurr tetiba
"Arini malam nisfu syaaban, malam segala buku dosa diangkat allah kesana, marilah kita bermaafan." Hati ku dihiris dan dihimpit oleh kesedihan

Teman akan sentiasa ingat dan mengingatkan kita bila mana perlu.

Dan seorang lagi datang "lynna jangan lupa tadi mak aku call dia kata jangan lupa qiamulai malam ni" dan dia memandang tepat kemata aku "buat solat hajat minta apa yang you nak"

I wanted to cry but my heart are not allowing it. My eyes is watery but nothing comes out. I have series of arguments, i have been consoling, i have been tempting to burst but i become cool and compose all the mixture feelings in me to be compressed.

HE knows the best. Alhamdullillah he opened my eyes and soul tonite.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Pentas Hidup

After 3 years marriage will change slightly
After 5 years gap became bigger
After 7 years bridge may be a good outcome to connect each other
After 10 years something will come up

Of all the stages it includes silentness, arguments, heart feeling, pinpointing and the worst is infedility. Man turn to another woman and woman turn to another woman (mostly) but some will turn to another man

Women change mostly after the first baby appears. Thinking that little creature need their attention and neglecting the father are the biggest mistake. Women thought man can take care of their self. Knowing of the character of a man who is hard on the surface but actually more like a baby inside them.

Looking and searching always after a security, love, pamper, care, affections etc, that are the real man. Those who really knows how to play their role won't be feeling it badly because they have ways to mend the problem well. Knowing their woman are the best things they could do. And understanding why the changes took place are their credibility.

Note that im talking about a man who understand their woman enough. All men has ego, so do women.

But because nature of a women which is soft, lovable, emotional and feminine it makes them know where they are from and what are they heading. Mostly they are loyal although they are obsessed with the kids, family and some who has career. They put off their social life entirely just because they want full concentration of their family.

But still man are not enough of their woman who give 200% of their life to families. They need something to tickle they thoughts, their mind and feelings.

Some are just tickling without any emotional attention seeking. As they reach home the other half and family are their life. But at work calling and smsing are part of their routine life.

Some girls may be fine with the situation but for those single who are seeking for someone caring, understanding this are the right candidate and how that reflect those men?? (Sendiri cari pasal sendiri tanggung).

Back to the gaps that emerge after few years marriage, there is no reason for gaps actually. It’s the understanding needed between both. For the attention needed by the little ones as well as the big baby. Both has played good role in making the happy family.

Role of a father who has been out the whole day to bring bread home for families and role of a mother who may be working day time and rushed home to fulfilled the role as mother, wife and a lady to a man taking care of the whole welfare in making the marriage meaningful to her and him plus the kids should be taken seriously in making sure that both understand each duties.

But does this responsibilities make them needing each other more and better in terms of having each other to complete the beautiful life???

I know sometime things happen without we want it to be. Things just go out of ways unintentionally. Some would just do it because they want to fulfilled the eagerness of being needed some would just follow the flow without realizing they have gone so far.

Backtrack, think wisely will benefit both.

This reflectionary item will of course affects my decision.

Insecure and Inferior


In every individual the feelings are there. FIXED! Some trying hard to deny it although they're living happily in lavishing life.

But unfortunately the feels never dies as all of us human are created in a way to have the mixture sort.

One can do anything to reverse that feeling in them and make others have that miserable feeling but of course one who knows what they are wont feel the slight of it at all.

Lain Padang Lain Belalang

Nak Gelak Sikit

jo an: emmmm kalau pinggang girl 35...u agak di chubby tak
Please urself: thats not my problem n not for me to answer i dont go n check ppl bmi???

Thats my answer. I can be cynical and i can be cunning but the truth is women will never ask the man if he wear pants size 40 would he look nice in it or not?? Theres is some women who will give a shit about bmi and how the man look but some will care less.

As for me Ive been with small, big, tall, thin, chubby, macho, handsome not to forget masculine guys to be friend with. What more important to me was who is he than how he looks.

Looks can be deceiving. Nice to see, but not nice to talk with. Nice to be with but speaks nonsense I turn around and leave.

Anyway thats how men look at women, judging from the way she looks, her BMI do entice them.

Anyway lain padang lain belalang!!!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Measuring

When i don't agree to meet, was that a measure of arrogantness?

When im being expressive is that the best way to measure who am i or what am i?

When im being judge should i care what people think about me?

If my principle is being question would that make me less than a person?

If im in bad mood should i not laugh or smile at all to other people?

Im fine today it was just my mood swing on certain situation that doesnt make me happy today. Other than that, im fine. I was judged and critisize today the silly statement i made n that was accountable of who i am in their eyes. "Sigh"

Life and people are two different thing.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Expressive or Silent

However this topic occur my mind today.

Being expressive hardly attracts acceptance from people. But silent is a killing tools for communication.